Loose Ends

In previous posts I have made a few statements that I want to follow-up with or just get off my chest.

I wrote in August that I wanted to read Peggy Joyce Ruth's book about Psalm 91. Recently, I requested it through interlibrary loan. I have read many books through interlibrary loan. But this time, no library that had the book would loan it out for free. I would have to pay a fee of $15. 

I was mad and I was sad. The library is a place where I never felt second class because I had "no money." I could with honor read and read and read. When I received that e-mail, it sucked the air right out of my lungs. It is hard to put into words what that "wall" meant.

How quickly we forget. As I looked up the information for the above two paragraphs. I reread the August post. Oh, how I needed that reminder. God will not disappoint me. I was failing to trust him today in my impossible situation. Lord, please forgive my unbelief.

I am waiting on Charles Swindoll's book about Jesus. I finally feel like I can read it. It was way back in March of 2012 when I first mentioned the book. It has "only" taken me 21 months to get here. I wonder what He has to teach me. Thank you interlibrary loan, Nashville Public Library and that other wonderful library letting me use your book! Please forgive my above outburst.

In September, I wrote something judgmental about a book. I had been reading articles about how to improve your blog writing. They said things like ... shake things up, state your opinions, call a spade a spade, reveal industries secrets. La. La. La. Oh, I wish I had never listened. Please forgive me Mr. Lupton. I lacked humility. 

I thought about just editing the post and removing the offense. No one would ever know. Nope, the good book says to confess your sins, and He is faithful and just to forgive them. I need forgiveness.